I looked into the car that next to mine when I stopped for traffic light. I don’t usually look into people’s car like that but something just caught my eyes. I saw a lady crying in the car. She was sitting next to the driver (which was a guy). No facial expression but can only see tears rolling down from her eyes. I don’t know why I looked at her for as long as 5 seconds. I know I shouldn’t look like that. May be she was wearing sunglasses and that made me felt ‘ok’ to look at her without any eye contact. I don’t know if she was looking at me too.

I sped off as the light turned green. The car was behind me. I looked at the rear mirror and I can still see the lady facing the left window. Obviously she didn’t move at all the whole time. I felt sad and I can’t stop thinking about her. How can a person cries in such a calm way? She reminded me of myself crying in the car for several times. Not sure if others looked at me as I looked at her too. There were times that I cried when I was walking on the street, shopping mall and restaurants, sitting in the car and etc. I can’t remember what made me so sad that I had to cry in public places but I am very sure that I didn’t have any choice but to let go my tears. Some people asked why I cried over certain things. I hate to cry too but it is something that I can’t stop. I cry because I am hurt or sad. I do not have switch that I can turn my tears on or off just like that. I wish I have switches too!

I am not sure if I know what the lady in the car was thinking at that time. But for me, I see cars, building and people passing by very quickly while my mind is filled with confusion, questions may be, hatred, etc. It is always at the end of the journey, only I realise how wet my face and my shirt is.

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Oh…yes..still busy as usual. Another 2 weeks to go and I will be free like a bird. However, currently I have no idea how I can get through these 2 weeks. My daily schedule is fixed. The first thing I do after breakfast will be school work and work my head off till 11+ at night. I think I aged a lot in these few weeks. Oh..why 11 pm? Cos that’s my principle since young. I hate to stay up late to do work and sleeping to me is the second most important thing in my life. (Eating is the first!)

Let me share some of my “experimental photos” with you guys. I was so happy when taking my experimental photos. I had so much fun! I even got a fish tank from a friend to take some “underwater” shots. I put my head into the fish tank (with water of course) and did some crazy shots on my hair. It looked creepy at first but after that, I kinda like its “squishy” look.

Some crazy shots of “crazy-me-in-bedsheet”..

Anyway, I have taken 150+ pictures of me playing in the rain, fooling around the house, etc…just trying to get some nice candid pictures. Why in the rain? Mmm…well it has been raining for a few days and it is so gloomy. So I said to myself, why not have a nice and fun Sunday instead of a gloomy one. So I started to ‘have fun’ in the rain. Not bad…my very first time playing in the rain. .

These are some pictures that I took in my shower. Believe it or not..these pictures are not being edited in anyway. They were taken originally from my digital camera. OH…Love my camera so much now…

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